i used to be a bitch

It was 2002.  I was living in the City of Angels, trying to make it on my own.  My first stab at a career had ended.  Five years in the practice of law was all I could take.  I tried… Believe me, I tried. 

I started as a corporate Bankruptcy attorney and after two years of reorganizing Carolco Pictures (do you remember them? they did the Terminator and many more), I found myself intrigued with the world of Entertainment.  It’s Funny – most people relocate to Los Angeles to be involved in that world.  I had been there for 7 years already and it had taken me that long to bite. I’m glad I did.

It taught me a great lesson which I’m still in the process of implementing.


I took a job at Jersey Films. Not a good move, or so I thought at the time.  Here I had been thinking I was “moving up” on the career ladder and instead, I became a glorified assistant to an assistant.  The job sucked.,  AND I had taken a not so small pay cut for it.  Played the cards, lost the hand.  I moved on.

Next, I landed at E-Entertainment.  This job may actually have been worse.  Silly me.  I thought I had been hired as a L-A-W-Y-E-R who graduated cum laude from a prestigious school.  I guess not.  I found myself doing the same grunt work I had been doing 12 years earlier without a college degree or any prior work experience.

The mentality in Hollywood is that people are dying to be a part of their glamorous world and will basically work for minimum wage no matter how qualified they are.

Not me.

I was miserable.  Resentful.  Self-serving. I thought I deserved better. I was smart, educated and reliable.  So then why did I feel like a bottom sucking, worthless piece shit? To top it all off-not surprisingly- my first marriage was falling apart.

We always have a choice.  We can either tune in to the universe and accept the gifts it offers to us, no matter how disguised they may seem at the time, or we can fight and lose the battle.  I had no idea the universe had my back at the time so I fought it every step of the way.


Not on purpose, of course.  I really had no idea how poorly I was behaving…   But everyone else around me did.  No one liked me besides my family and my closest friends.   Honestly, I wonder now if they really liked me at the time, or were just putting up with me because they thought they had to.

So now here I was with no job at all, no husband, living in this crazy, intense city where everyone was out for himself, biting to survive.

At some point, I stopped sleeping.  Well-not completely.  I’d go to bed every night around 10pm and without fail, I was up at 1am.  It actually became a game I had with myself. I’d open my eyes, guess the time was 1:03am or 1:07am, look at the clock and smile that I could be that on track.  I’d be up until 4:00am, fall back asleep for an hour or two and then my blaring alarm would jolt me up again.  Perfect.  Exhausted and bitchy…  What a great combination to start the day.

At some point I scheduled an appointment with my doctor so I could beg for something to keep me asleep at night.  He knew me quite well. I had been there several times over the past few years with various maladies.  You name it.  Sinus infections, IBS symptoms, the flu.  If it came around, I got it.  It’s no wonder.

My body was a mess.  Undernourished in every sense of the word.  Overstimulated.  Completely stressed out.

Not that there is really any excuse to act like self-deserving, self-centered, thoughtless bitch, but when your body is not getting the nourishment it needs, how can you possibly give back positive, loving light?

I’d sit in that waiting room, staring at my watch, wondering how anyone could have the audacity to keep me waiting so long.  Didn’t he know I had places to go and people to see too? My time was just as important as his.  I made that perfectly clear to the assistant behind the desk.

Finally, I was seen and walked out with what I needed!    I was looking forward to sleeping through the night! But I was in for a surprise… It was more than the night I slept through.  I couldn’t drag myself out of bed after 14 or 15 hours.  My body was limp…  I had no energy.  No life.  No personality.  Not even my bitchy one.  I was sucked dry.

I thought I’d adjust to the medication but it continued for weeks.  My life wasn’t getting better.  It was getting worse. I was falling into emptiness.

I called up my doctor and asked him what he had given me.  I told him I could not function.  You know what I found out?  He had given me medication for a schizophrenic.  He thought I had a personality disorder!

Yes, I was unhappy.  Yes, I was a bitch.  But… the only personality disorder I had was that I had not yet tapped into my inner self.  I could not feel my heart.  I was not being nourished by the “primary foods” in my life that included so much more than I was actually putting in my mouth.

I needed love.  I needed guidance. I needed support. I needed compassion. I needed a nurturing relationship.  I needed a career I loved. 

Once I realized that, I took the steps I needed to make it all happen.

It’s taken me years to walk along the path I’ve been heading,  and I’m not saying I’m perfect.  God knows I’m far from perfect.  B Now, I am finally able to look at my destiny differently.  I will never again be “stuck” in a life I don’t want to be living.  Now I have a right to be happy.  I am allowed to write the fairytale I want my life to look like.  It’s up to me to create it.  No one is going to make my dreams come true, other than myself.  I know that if I send positive light out into the universe it will come back to me tenfold.

Best of all, when I lay my head down on my pillow at night, I can actually sleep through the night.

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avocado salsa you will die for

My friend, Kelly, loves to cook and bake, and is always trying to find the best recipes for everything.

She loves avocados, probably more than I do, which is hard to believe!

I know you will absolutely love what I now call her Kelly’s Famous Avocado Salsa.



3 Hass Avocado’s (ripe)

1 box of Organic Cherry Tomatoes

1/2 Red Onion

A handful of Cilantro

Pinch of Sea Salt

2 Organic Limes

doTERRA essential lime oil

doTERRA essential cilantro oil

We  like to use doTERRA lime essential oil in the salsa for added richness. Depending on the strength of the lime taste, add 3 drops of doTERRA lime essential oil and 2 drops of doTERRA cilantro essential oil, mixe then taste. You be the judge in this category on what you prefer. I am a huge lime lover so add add both fresh limes (for the juice) and essential oil for the power and essence of the entire plant.


Cut the avocado into big chunks and place into a bowl. Cut cherry tomatoes in half. Dice red onion into small pieces, and dice up cilantro. Add essential oil and the pinch of salt and lightly mix. You want the salsa to be chunky and fresh, not mushed together to where you can’t tell what’s from what like guacamole.

If you would like to make your own homemade chips, buy whole corn tortillas and cut them into four quarters. Submerge the individual pieces into hot oil canola oil and fry until crispy. You want the tortillas to be crispy so that you can eat them like chips!

This is a great snack or party appetizer.  I’d love to hear how it turned out for you.  Please leave a comment in the box below.

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delicious raw kale, red pepper and avocado soup

Spring is here and that means we can eat soup chilled!

As a raw foodie I love to source the freshest ingredients and make cold soups during Spring/Summer months. Soup is so simple, delicious and nutritious.

Whether you are entertaining or just want something yummy waiting in your fridge, this soup is sure to please the palate, and it is good for you!

Photo Credit: House and Home



1 large avocado
1 red pepper
2 cups salad greens
handful of kale
1-2 scallions
1 tsp dulse
sea salt or Bragg’s apple cider to taste
1 clove garlic, crushed
pinch of cayenne
fresh herbs like dill, thyme, and basil to taste
purified water

For added zest, I like to add three drops of doTERRA of lime essential oil to this soup.


Blend all ingredients. Use purified water to thin the soup to your desired consistency.

This recipe was adapted from Kris Karr’s: Crazy Sexy book.  If you haven’t picked up a copy of that yet, it’s an absolute must!  I love to know when you will try it so please leave your comments in the box below.

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it’s time to get OUT OF HERE!

When was the last time you just booked a ticket, didn’t think twice and did something for you?

In the Western world our idea of Holiday is the holidays appointed on our calenders. If you’re lucky you take a vacation once a year and that’s about as much time as you truthfully take for yourself.

What if you were to live your life by the seat of your pants and for the experience?


Not just to pay the bills?

What if you sat down and wrote out your life (with nothing holding you back) and you shifted your priorities.

What do you envision your happiness looking like?

Too many of us live to work instead of living to live.  And then then they end up miserable.

So what do you say?  Are you down on making a list?  Can you jot down what you really want to and make them a priority?

Pack your bags, your life is waiting!

What do you have to lose, but another week, doing the same old sh*t. Spice it up folks, and tell me what you did!  I’d love to hear your comments in the box below.

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raw zucchini pasta with cherry tomatoes

I love raw food. I love knowing that everything I put into my body is natural, made from the earth, and nourishes my body with the nutrients I need to maintain optimal health.

This is one of my favorite raw recipes.

Zucchini Pasta with Cherry Tomatoes

Photo credit: Whole Living Magazine



8 oz cherry tomatoes

1 clove garlic, thinly sliced

1/4 cup raw walnuts

2 tbsp torn fresh basil, plus leaves for garnish

2 tbsp extra virgin olive oil

1 zucchini, sliced lengthwise 1/4 inch long strips


Toss all ingredients together with 3 drops of doTERRA lemon essential oil (more if you so desire, you can even put a couple drops of basil essential oil if you really want to enrich the essence of basil). Let stand for 20 minutes before serving.

I absolutely know you will love this recipe, adapted from Whole Living.  Let me know when you are going to try it by leaving your comments in the box below.

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i’ve got the best rosewater toner recipe for you!

I love making my own natural, holistic products. I”m going to teach you how to make your own because when you do, you’ll  be guaranteed to know what’s in them!

Toner gets the funk off of your face that your cleanser doesn’t and restores the PH balance in your skin. It cleans your pores completely.  And if you use the right kind of scent in your tone, leaves your face smelling bea-U-tiful!

Here is my favorite homemade toner recipe. It’s simple, lovely and smells so good, you’ll want to eat it.  Sounds crazy, huh? Maybe.  But it’s true.  🙂



4 tbsp rosewater

2 drops doTerra Rose essential oil

2 tbsp witch hazel

2 tbsp distilled water


In a clear vile, place all of the ingredients, cover and shake. Let is sit for about a day so that the ingredients can come together. Before each use shake the bottle and pour a little on a soft cotton ball or pad. Use after you wash your face, to get your skin squeaky clean and vibrant. Happy toning

I’ve given some great info on how to clean and tone your beautiful face.  I’d love to hear from you.  Please leave your comments below.

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do you trust your intuition?

When I was younger I didn’t have a friggin’ clue that I had something called intuition.

I guess it had been there all along, telling me I deserved better, not to date the guy that was treating me like crap, eat foods I knew weren’t great for my bod, or make a choice I knew I’d regret.

Do you trust your intuition? Do you hear your inner voice? Do you heed its call or do you shove it down like a lot of people do?

You might not know this, but your inner voice, (not the one reminding you how much laundry you have), the one deep down, inside your gut, is trying to guide you to your highest SELF.

In other words, it’s speaking to your soul.


Our world is filled with distractions and our mind runs amuck racing from thought to thought. It’s hard to hear this voice when our minds are filled with loud noise and wandering thoughts ALL THE TIME.

However – if you can actually STOP the next time you hear that deeper voice and pay attention to what it is trying to tell you, you might just realize that you know how to govern your own life and give yourself exactly what you really need, deserve and desire. 

Try it, and let me know if it works for you. I’d love to hear a personal intuition story of yours, if you are so inclined to share with me. Please leave your comments in the box below.

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here’s my secret to my great skin!

Have you ever wanted to make your own facial cleanser using essential oils?

Well, here is your chance!

I use essential oils for everything it seems these days. I use essential oils to treat my families aliments, as ingredients in my recipes, to get rid of headaches, and to create AH-mazing aromas in my home.

I also use essential oils in my skin care products  Yes ma’am.  That means on my face!  They actually smell so good I want to eat them.  🙂

Here is my recipe for your own facial cleanser. I think this is totally cool way to wash your face with a natural effective product.

I’ve given you several great tips to help your skin look absolutely blissful and I want to hear the results.  Does your skin look as good as mine yet?  🙂  Post a comment below.


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an easy tip on how to find your bliss

It sounds so simple, right?  Follow your Bliss.  So, why is it so hard to get to that blissful spot?

What stands in the way of us following our bliss?

Oh, that’s right—LIFE, mortgages, bills, money, etc, etc. etc…..

What if all those things didn’t matter?  What if following your bliss meant all you have to do is take a proactive stance in how you look at life?  For instance, instead of going through life without an plan or idea about how to get to where you want to be, MAKE ONE!

Sometimes we are passive players in this game called: existence, but most of us are actually dying to be happy, to fulfill some purpose or to follow our bliss.

If you are one of those people who seeks bliss. Put your bliss first. Know what your bliss is and keep your eye on the prize.Follow your bliss

I’ve given you some great ideas on how you can achieve your bliss.  I’d love to hear how you plan to put your plans into action.  Please post a comment below.

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your secret guide to emotional wellness

Are you looking for a way to feel better?  Emotionally?  Physically?  Sexually?  I always am.

Since I’ve incorporated essential oils into literally every facet of my life, I have come to discover the gamut of how these oils can help your life. Whether it be your health, the air you breathe, a shift in mood, aches, pains, soreness, fatigue, even a bad day; essential oils have your back! Check out this graph to see just how essential oils heal and the holistic benefits they can have.

If you want to know where I get my essential oils, click HERE

I’ve given you some great tips on how oils can help you achieve optimum wellness.  I’m interested to hear your thoughts.  Please post a comment below.

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